Don't worry, y'all. I'm still here. Just working and living life. Just kinda here. Still in Anchorage. For now. Still going. Kinda. For the most part, I'm doin' alright.

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My dad's getting married next month. Not sure I've mentioned that lately. October 15th and I'm going. Sexiness is going with me, but...

I have that bad feeling like I'm going to want to stay. I'm not sure how many of you were with me last year around this time, but I drove up to Colorado for a visit and I thought it would fix my itch. Boy oh boy, was I wrong! It made it all worse. I dunno. Maybe actually living there is always a bad idea but visiting often can't hurt. Problem with that is that I always move so far away. Right now, I live as far as possible while on the same continent.

I like it up here, but I was looking around the other day and I was thinking how bored I am with Anchorage. I love Alaska, its amazingly beautiful up here. But I'm done with the city. I'm just not meant to live in a city. Last year it was Houston with 2+ million, this year its Anchorage with its 300+ thousand. Both of which were me moving from Montrose, teeny tiny town of about 15,000 if that. I'm just not a city girl...I'm a country girl.

I was talking to a friend from Montrose and we were talking about moving away from there and starting over in a bigger town/city and he said he'd never move. It makes sense. I couldn't see him anywhere else. Kinda the same with me. Despite the mad drama, its home and its where I spent a chunk of life. A big chunk. I graduated from Montrose High School and made friends and "grew up" with those people. I hung out, went off-roading, drinking, just generally being. Yes, there's a lot of drama and yes, a lot of schtuff went down in 2003 where friends were made and lost and kinda lost and then back in my life...but its that way in small towns. There's not much you can do to change it, nor would I try.

But...

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At the same time...

I love Sexiness. And he likes it up here and ultimately, we want to move to Oregon, to live by the ocean. I have wanted to live on the beach for the last six years. Live on the beach, with the waves and the phenomenal sunsets...sitting in the sand or on a deck with a view...writing. That's all I want to do...I want to write and have a family and just be...

...happy.

Yesterday ~*~ Tomorrow